I can really relate to the mental tradeoff you’re talking about, choosing stability over things like weight or appearance is not easy at all, and it is good you prioritized your mental health first. For me, small things like music actually helped a lot during that phase, especially artists like Charli XCX whose energy can shift your mood and make you feel a bit more in control. Sometimes I even found creative outlets helpful too, like playing around with lyrics or writing how I felt, and tools like brat lyric maker can be a fun way to express emotions in a lighter way while still dealing with everything going on.